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I’m pretty much exhausted from this week.  Work has been killing me.  Boss has not helped.  But it’s Friday, so at the very least.. the week is over!

BSJ this weekend!  That’s all well and good.. but I have better things to do, air hockey among them.  Bathing dogs.  Cleaning house.  Maybe even, dare I say it?, grocery shopping.  Ooh, I got chills.

I just thought I’d share with all of my blogging friends.. today is National Write in Your Diary day.  I think blogging counts as a diary.  So I’m celebrating the day.

I’m REALLY looking forward to the 29th of September.  You’ll see why.

THINGS I LOVE, by Sarah Brown

  • Bryan’s hands on my bare back
  • Large special, hot, extra crispy, extra bleu cheese, unsweet
  • "Comer, your girl is HOT!"
  • Mabel’s yodel when I first get home
  • Keboobalah’s ever-changing profile pic
  • My sister’s laugh.  Holy hell.
  • the Boy
  • Arguing over WHO’S theatre it is.. and realizing we both love it equally, and it doesn’t matter.
  • Carrot cake muffins
  • Homemade chocolate milkshakes
  • WILDECHICK-A-MANIA
  • Chattanooga.. mmm..
  • Elyse’s smile
  • It’s almost Halloween! (Okay, so it’s almost October.  But THAT’S almost Halloween!)
  • Triscuits and Easy Cheese
  • The Cherry in the Spoon
  • PANCAKES
  • Surprises.. (tee hee hee)
  • Emily Griffin’s Xanga
  • Dressing up in a formal gown
  • Karma

Yep.  A small, compact, and abridged list.  But I do love all of those things. 

The End, by Sarah Brown
 
1:36 pm
HuntsVegas Community Theatre
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Everyone’s been writing lately about why they do theatre.  I’ve had an interesting bout with theatre here lately, so I feel pretty damn qualified to spill a little opinionated light here.  Cause I’ve left it pretty dark, as of late.

My first show EVER was Christmas Carol, when I was ten.  Not only was it my first show, but it was my first brush of Debbie and Viv, who ended up shaping a lot of what I hold true today.  I got yelled at.  A.  Lot.  I was coerced, nay, forced into being something I wasn’t.  It was a rough adjustment, for someone who had been taking voice since she was seven, to be suddenly told that her voice was not sufficient.. that her presence on-stage was lackluster.. and that the ensemble she was part of was ruining the scene for the diva.  I was ten, for crying out loud.

Looking back on it, I realized that I was better for the wear.  To this day, I work as hard as I can to make the scene the best it can be, not for myself, but for everyone else sharing the stage with me.  Because, in the end, although I say it.. it’s not MY house.  It belonged to someone before me.  It’s not MY stage.  I didn’t build it.  In the end, I’m lucky to be up there.

Theatre is awesome because it allows you to be coerced, nay, forced to be something you aren’t.  It gives you wiggle room.  It’s like trying on clothes with personalities.  And just like clothes, where some people always go for the same style, color, or fit.. some people always give the same performance on stage.  It’s inevitable.  But just like some people will wear multi-colored sequined shoes, some people always are open to trying new personalities.  It’s fun.  And it’s safe, believe it or not.  Being on stage gives you the safety to be whatever you want that character to be and not be faulted for it.  Wanna be slutty?  Sure.. it’s not you, it’s the character.  Be a murderous succubus?  Why not?  It’s not you.. it’s the character.

Where people make mistakes is by trying on personalities off-stage.  Subtleties can be safe, but huge leaps of character are dangerous.  So it’s like I always say.. "Do your job" and "Save it for the stage".  To be a very talented actor, you must know who you are INSIDE, as a person, rather than as an actor.  You have to know what height your diving board is at before you can guage your dive, you know?  I’m terrible at analogies.

I had an inkling of this before now, but lately, it has only been solidified.  Taking direction well is very important.  And those who take direction well are those who know their starting points.  Lately, in all the constant fluidity of theatre in Sarah’s life, I’ve found that one thing is true.. it’s Sarah’s life, and theatre just comes and goes.  I think everyone should be so fortunate to be surrounded with loving people who preach that.

And remember.. life is cyclical.  EVERYTHING comes back around.  So although you may feel robbed or beaten or dejected (and believe me, those I KNOW), take heart in knowing that those who MADE you feel that way will get theirs.  It’s life.. that’s how it works.

"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot.. nothing’s going to get better.  It’s not." - The Lorax, Dr. Seuss

It will get better.
8:46 am
Do you SMEL-L-L-L-L..
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What Sarah Lena is cookin?

Okay, so already, I’m in a bad mood. I SOOOOO wanted to be in a good mood today. It’s Friday, after all. This weekend has some fun plans in store. Things are looking up… right?

But there was some disturbing news on the medical front last night. Can I just say that the Brown women are tired of medical news? It’s EXHAUSTING. Jenni’s fever had come back, and so had the pain, so she went back to the internist, who confirmed that, yes, there is still infection raging inside of her. In turn, the internist (hah!) sent her BACK to the urologist to have the kidney stones blasted. The urologist said, “No. Stay on these uber expensive antibiotics for a month and THEN if you don’t get any better, we’ll blast the stones.”

You know we weren’t hearing that.

So my mother called the internist’s office. My mother is where I got my speaking skills, as we both almost always get what we want that way. Before long, Jenni had an appointment with another urologist.. this one was recommended by the internists’ office.. not to mention being the retired chairman of the Board of Urology for the state of California AND the retired Head Surgeon for Henry Mayo clinic in Los Angeles. So she went and saw him yesterday.

Cat scans, blood letting, and an antibiotic IV drip later, the urologist called mom on her cell phone (the man is a godsend, truly). Jenni has one stone in particular that is the size of a grape inside of her, and it’s breeding infection. “That stone should’ve been blasted a month ago,” he said, barely containing his anger (and, again, you can ONLY imagine the revenge that the Brown women are planning for the old urologist). “The infection has started to spread to her other organs. We’ll take care of this first thing tomorrow.”

So my poor little sister is BACK in the hospital, but this time, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. She’s on my mind a lot today. She sounded so beaten last night when I talked to her. I did my best to make her laugh, but it was a weak laugh. Not like Jenni. Not like the Brown women. We’re belly laughers.

I’m a bit stressed about that.

So Boss texts me this morning, around 6:45 a.m. (Which GREATLY pissed Bryan off.. “Isn’t that above and beyond your call to duty, Sarah?”) to ask me a favor. Well, here’s the thing. He wanted me to go to his house to pick up a document so he could go play golf. Don’t get me wrong: Boss NEEDS to play golf. He needs a day off, badly. I understand that. But his house is on the other side of work, like, PAST the airport. We’re talking another 15 minutes on top of my half hour commute to work. I asked what was in it for me, he said nevermind, and then got mad.

Left me a voicemail telling me I was on “his list”. Um, hello? Who do you think types up your list? Who do you think laminates your list? I don’t think you have the right grasp on this situation. So he comes in to work just long enough to drop this off, starts to lecture me on how I’m not supporting him adequately..

.. and .. well .. I opened a can of whoopass.

But he left to go play golf, and I’m here, working on what he needs. Adequately, my ass.

7:24 am