“County library?
Reference desk, please.
Hello?
Yes, I need a word definition.
Well, that’s the problem.
I don’t know how to spell it and I’m not allowed to say it.
Could you just rattle off all the swear words you know and I’ll stop you when..
Hello?”
- Calvin & Hobbes

Words are a funny thing.  They are only as strong as the reader makes them.  That’s why writing is such a powerful, fluid medium; words can take on an entirely different meaning to two different readers, just based on the bias of the eyes scanning them.

Words can also be empty.  Insincerity can often leave a glowing compliment appearing bland and lifeless. 

For instance:

When I say, “GOD, I am so gorgeous and beautiful and I know it, and so does everyone else,” everyone will gather their own opinion about the attitude in which the statement was penned.  While some newbies who’ve never met me before might think, “My goodness, that lady has confidence,” Delle would say, “Have you been drinking?  Jesus God, woman, snap out of it.”

The same could be said about entries I write that are not as specific as “Bryan said ____” or “The Coven did _____”.   Sometimes, I will write heated, veiled entries naming no one in particular.  I do this for me to vent.  It keeps me from homicide.  Or worse.

But here’s the thing: although I may bitch and whine on here, I always make a point to speak my mind in reality.  When I wrote some obviously emotionally turbulent stuff last week, it was so I could put words to my thoughts, and then when it came time to speak about The Boy and his place, I had the words.  I have to find my words on paper before I can say them with my mouth.  This makes me a more organized and together person.  Which, believe you me, is best for everyone.

So if you know I’m upset, it’s best to let me alone.  I will talk when I am ready.  I value my words immensely and want to put the right ones out there.  And if I don’t talk to you, it’s not cowardice or fear or anything like that, it’s that you’re simply not worth my words.

It’s just been a Monday at work here today.