Another “point” of blogs: they put people’s personalities under a magnifying glass.  And it’s so easy to look at someone else’s magnifying glass and say, “Gah, that’s just so stupid and pointless and I can’t believe all they do is bitch/whine/moan/brag/quote/tell jokes.”  But sometimes, you look at someone else’s magnifying glass, and what you see, although repulsive, is a bit too familiar.

Jekyll & Hyde auditions were this past weekend.  Although I knew that, I didn’t go.  Really, it’s a show that I’d rather watch than be in.  I’m holding out for Seussical: the Musical, which I’ve had the pleasure of seeing twice, so I’m ready to be a part of it.  But I did talk to several people who wanted to be a part of J&H, but were too afraid to audition.  And I’d say, “Please.  What’s there to be afraid of?  Just go do it.”

Then I stopped saying that.  Because it’s not fair for me to give advice that I wouldn’t take.

And I’d see people whine about work.  About family.  About everything.  In their blogs.  I’m JUST as guilty of that as anyone else, but whining just doesn’t change anything.

I was feeling blase about theatre around town.  So I’ve poured a whole bunch of myself into my current endeavor.. and quite honestly, I’m pleased as punch with how that’s going.  It’s not high-brow, but it is also FUNNY.  And I can’t wait to see what another month will make of it.

I was feeling bored with my involvement in extracurriculars.  So I’m starting to do publicity (my first love) for Lee Rep’s upcoming show, “The Crucible”.  This means I’m writing copy (back to that first love again), talking to producers.. media and public relations will always have my heart.

I was feeling cautious about my upcoming nuptuals.  So I’ve started being proactive where that matters.  I realized a large part of my trepidation was (honestly.. and immaturely) my appearance.  In turn, arriving at my doorstep this week are “Buff Brides: The Diet Plan for the Aisle” and “The Bridal Boot Camp Plan”, to at least make me feel like I have a chance of being the bride I want to be. 

And there’s still amazing things on the horizon.

I guess what I realized is this: fear is paralyzing.  And when you’re unmoving, your life passes you by.  Hate to be preachy, or on a soapbox, or even slightly holier-than-thou.. because I’m not.  I’m not any better than anyone else.  But I did kinda realize that this weekend.  As I was watching the fountain jump and randomly spray this weekend at the site that I think our ceremony would be most beautiful.. I realized that being afraid.. or timid.. or even hesitant.. is a waste of time.

I hated the movie, but one thought was made clear.. No day but today.