Argh.
I am back at work today. Which, you know, is good in a “This sure will help the paycheck!” kind of way, but bad in the way that I enjoy my sanity, and my mood definitely takes a sour turn when I know that work is eminent. And it’s not just my mood; even my subconscience goes nuts, with me dreaming about work and literal putting-out-of-fires and crap. I don’t sleep well.
I have tried and tried and TRIED to just come to peace with what I have here, because I’m sure it’s really not so bad. But it just feels so bad and I can’t make it feel any better, no matter how much brain power I put into the rationalization. Most of it, if not all of it, has to do with the fact that I am wired for communication, organization, and perfection. And this job? Allows me none of it. I am very much Lucy at the conveyor belt, trying to place the cherries just so, and only being successful a third of the time.
I have been with this company since I started my professional career, and I can’t say that about many people my age. Everyone I know has skipped around, being lured by better pay or greater opportunities, but I’ve felt a loyalty to this company that I have always worked for, the company my father works for. I feel a sort of legacy here, a history, that I’m not quick to let go of. But this? THIS FREAKIN’ SUCKS.
In other news, I leave you with this INCREDIBLY CUTE SHOT OF MY CHILD. AND HIS MOTHER.
Trying on Halloween costumes in Costco. This one looked oddly familiar..
Excellent pics!
I’m sure you can guess my advice on the job, as I’m in school to make a 180 degree career change. But I also realize it’s a horrible time to be looking for a job (depending on what you want).
In the interim, make a spreadsheet and just put your “dream job” thoughts there. Something about putting that thought process in motion can open doors.
My job is hideous right now, if it wasn’t short term I’d lose my shit.