I’m gonna take a second to bitch here about something that is COMPLETELY my fault. It’s my bed, and I’m lying in it, but it doesn’t mean it sucks any less.
I HATE not being pregnant at work.
It’s not a selfish thing, like, “Man, I wish everyone would coddle me and only talk about my baby 24/7″, cause it’s not. I’m not like that about ANYTHING. I didn’t even tell anyone at this new job I was getting married, because I didn’t want every conversation to be about the damn wedding. I feel the exact same way about the baby.
It’s more like.. this is a physical thing, and I need to be able to slack off physically. I’m not gonna avoid work and say that I can’t stuff binders because I’m pregnant, but I would like to be able to call in sick (as I did yesterday) with a valid excuse. Yesterday morning, I was spotting and was nauseous, so I stayed home. But since I’m not pregnant at work, I said I had a migraine.
And I want to be able to wear straight-up maternity clothes to work. Wearing baggy clothes just makes me look frumpy. I hear so many pregnant women say that they’re ready to look pregnant instead of just fat, and I’m just the opposite. When you’re hiding, fat is the easy way out.
But mostly, I wouldn’t mind a bit of accolades every now and again. I fly out tomorrow for a week’s worth of reviews out in California, and it’s gonna be a hellish week of 12-14 hour days and lots of on-my-feet time and blech. AND I CAN’T DRINK. So it just sucks. Compounding the suckiness? The only flight back I could get is a red-eye on Wednesday night. Blech. And today, someone dared call it a “boondoggle” (a trip an employee takes just to get out of town.. no real work). I swallowed my anger. Dude, I would rather sit here at home in my comfortable house wearing clothes that actually fit me than travel for nine hours on a plane.
ARGH.
That’s all. The end of bitching. (for now)
Why can’t you be pregnant at work? They are going to find out eventually, don’t ya think?
They are, as I’m going to tell them (at some point). But I have a coworker who is ALSO pregnant in my group.. and in a small group of employees, to have two of them out on maternity leave is gonna suck. So I figure I’ll “come out” mid-June.
Yuck. Yuckity Yuckity Yuck. The not-pregnant-at-work phase totally sucks. Especially the nausea and the fatigue and the general malaise.
I feel for you. I waited as long as possible. And the relief was AWESOME. I would throw up in my trash can and people would bring me glasses of water instead of wondering why I ran to the bathroom every half hour.
So the relief, when it comes, will be great. Good luck.